1. Friday I got to spend some good quality time with my girls. We went shopping for some crafting supplies and then came home and made some cute little decorations for their room. They were super hyper, but we had good time together. It's always nice to get some time with just them. When they don't have to help me round up the boys. I'm sure they enjoy the break as well. We all got really excited to pick out somethings for the baby as well. It's fun to have them to get excited with. They keep planning out funny things for her, and asking if they will be able to hold her in the hospital "RIGHT AFTER she's born?" So cute. This is one loved little sister. I love my girls.
2. Sunday at church I was reminded how excited Bradley gets to hold the Sacrament tray and pass it on to the next person. He actually got really ambitious and moved down the pew to pass it to everyone within his reach :). I love that he likes that and looks forward to being able to being a deacon and passing the Sacrament.
3. Flowers. My sweet husband brought me home some beautiful roses on Tuesday. He left them on the bed so I didn't get them until I was getting ready for bed, but what a sweetheart! It's funny how just when I think he can't possibly love me now, he surprises me. Not only were there flowers, but each one had a special little love note with it. What guys goes to such great lengths? and just because too, it wasn't a holiday or anniversary or anything. He's just so intune, he knows when I need that kind of stuff. And I did need it. It's been a really crappy week(ish). It totally reminded me of how I felt when he sent me flowers after our first date. It just really brightened my day. I love Nate. What would I do without him! And he lets me cry.
4. Wednesday night I taught myself how to do the crocheted edges around the baby blanket thing. I've always known how to crochet, but I've never tried this, and it wasn't until the second time around that I thought it was going to look presentable. (I was planning how I was going to just cut the whole thing off) But I am just WAY happy for myself and quite pleased with how it is turning out. I probably sound stupid to all you Molly Homemakers out there, but this was a new one for me!! My grandma would be proud of me, and so am I :).
5. This week it was hard to come up with a fifth thing. I think it is clearly because I am so negative lately and not because there aren't fabulous things happening. But unfortunately, I have had a pretty crappy week. (don't worry, I will turn this into something good, I promise) Life feels really unorganized lately, and I feel really scatterbrained. I feel like it's impossible to get myself up and going every morning, and even harder to get myself to do all of the housework and "fun stuff" for the kids. I think it's even been hard for me to just smile. But through all of this, with all of the crying and hurting and lack of sleep, my kids have been fabulous. They are kids and have their moments, but this week of all weeks, when I have been a slacker, and grumpy, and not the best mom in the world, they have managed to make me feel otherwise. Charity constantly giving me hugs, constantly telling me "did you know you're the best mom in the galaxy!" (possibly trying to convince herself, but meaningful nonetheless) Kelly gives me hugs and wipes my tears, and constantly asks what she can do to help. Bradley keeps coming over for cuddles, rubbing my arm, laying his head on my shoulder, telling me that he loves me. Luke's smiling, happy fun attitude, just bouncing around making us all laugh constantly, and actually telling me that he loves me too, on his own! Noah is an angel, he is so aware of how I feel, and that is hard for me, but at the same time he is right here, wrapping my arm around him, sitting on my lap, and giving me the cute little looks that everything will be okay. And honestly, as much as I hate how my bad attitude can affect my unborn baby, I know that she is here, helping me along as well. I have not stopped feeling her move and that has been so comforting. What would I do without these 6 little blessings in my life. And without their sweet dad who manages to everything bearable. I love my family. I love that we have each other, and no matter where we live, how messy it is, how chaotic it is, I hope they know how much I love them and how much I appreciate their love and their support. I am hoping for a better week this coming week, and I am going to do better at reading my scriptures, praying, getting to bed sooner, and wearing myself out more so that I can sleep, so that I have some better happy things to share :) I want to do that for my family. I want things to be better. The new schedule should be helpful....
I'm sure we all have these times, and I'm sure I'm not the only one with kids that love them. It's just nice to be able to recognize it when everything else feels so out of place. Life is interesting.