I was feeling so awesome about my sharing times all week, getting things ready and knowing that what I was doing was what Heavenly Father wanted me to do. Well, of course, after the fact, I felt the opposite. I hate it when I feel that way after. I wish I could just do something and then feel awesome. I read a book in Junior Primary which ended up being a lot of fun with the kids on the floor to look at the pictures. I had to race out of there a few minutes early to go see Charity get set apart. And that one was okay. But in Senior Primary, I did a little General Authority review, which was a matching game with some facts about each one, along with something they taught last conference, and it just didn't flow the way I had pictured. I will say that the kids were awesome and didn't need to be calmed down, which was nice, but I am not sure they were able to learn anything. Which totally bummed me out. Hopefully the Lord worked some miracles and was able to teach them something through the spirit. I am still struggling with Sharing time. Two years later. I had to race out of Senior Primary as well, to go to the Youth meeting with the YM/YW/Parents with the Bishop. So kind of anti-climactic! 9-30-18
CHARITY- LAUREL PRESIDENT
Charity got set apart as the Laurel President Sunday. This was really exciting for her. She has been really anxious to be a class president. She really was made for that kind of position. I am really excited for her to experience that. I remember when I was Laurel President though, so it's hard for me to accept that she is old enough! She will do great! I loved her setting apart blessing. It's so fun to hear what Heavenly Father wants for her. 9-30-18
KELLY'S PATRIARCHAL BLESSING
This is one of my new favorite parenting paychecks :). One of the perks of being a mom is being able to hear and witness a patriarchal blessing of one of your precious little jewels! Kelly got to receive hers on Sunday and it was so beautiful! Words cannot express the feeling that washed over me when the Patriarch said things that only Heavenly Father could have prompted him to say. It was so incredible. I love hearing about someone who I know so well from the perspective of our loving Heavenly Father. It's just so neat! I loved hearing about the blessings he wants her to receive, all the beautiful promises, and the happy life she has ahead! Like Nate said, I already have a deep love and respect for her future husband, just from hearing about him in her blessing :). It's so neat to be part of all of that! I can't wait for the next one! 9-30-18
FINISHING THE BOOK OF MORMON
I finished reading the Book of Mormon again! This time was different than it's been in a while. It was hard for me to get into it because it took me almost the whole thing to figure out a good study routine. I was so happy to find the ldsscripturepower.org or whatever it is, and have some direction. Since I found that, I really just breezed right through. I missed several work outs because I couldn't put my scriptures down :). So I was happy to finish it. It's neat to have new things stand out every time. One thing that stood out to me this time, in Moroni 10, was the part that says, "deny yourselves of all ungodliness". Got me thinking about what things in my life are "ungodly". I do have a lot of things I could work on that I think will help me to feel closer to my Heavenly Father. It was a great reminder. I'm excited to start back over. 10-1-18
THE DUMP X3
We took our third load to the dump on Monday evening (since we were headed up that way with the trailer anyway), backyard stuff- mainly the shed this time. It has been so fun to actually be making some progress on this journey toward getting our basketball court! It's kind of nuts how much work there is to do and how much stuff we've already done, but I love that we're doing it as a family! It's actually been kind of fun. 10-1-18
CHARITY AND KELLY BEDS
We found some cute white bed frames that will also work as storage for the girls. I had been looking for a bed for Charity since hers broke, but this was perfect to find two matching ones! They need a fresh coat of paint, but they're VERY sturdy and should last a good while! Which is a really nice thought. I'm so thankful for Nate and that he was willing to drive all the way to North Ogden to get them with me! 10-1-18
FHE
For Molly's lesson we had a testimony meeting and she got to call on people as they raised their hand to stand up and bear their testimony. She loved the power and did such a good job :). I loved hearing everyone's purest, simplest testimonies! And like Jack said, when we bear our testimonies we can feel The Spirit. So true. I miss doing that with my family as a kid, so this was a cool experience. We played Nickel Nickel Who's Got the Nickel for Nate's game. That was a lot of fun too! I think everyone would agree that watching Molly want to play, then figure it out, and then finally play it just like the big kids and get SUPER excited at the end- was the favorite part! She was so funny! So much fun! We had Oreos for the treat- Nate and I had his delicious Chocolate Ice cream- first time making it with the Cacao- AMAZING!!! It was a nice evening. 10-1-18
LUNCH WITH STACEY
I had a great time with Stacey on Tuesday. We FINALLY went to lunch after talking about it for at least four years, haha! Kind of how it goes with everyone I guess. Molly could have been better, way better, but she was fine. It was cute to see her reaction to the birds outside in the rain. Stacey is a good friend- I like that we see a lot of things the same way. Then I don't feel so abnormal. 10-2-18
PTA BOARD MEETING
This meeting reconfirmed for me how happy I am that I am NOT the PTA President this year. What an annoying meeting! I hate how nothing can change or be done about the lame stuff that exists. It's so frustrating. I had to go to talk about P/T conference dinners, but I do not see myself going again anytime soon. SO LAME!! 10-3-18
DENTIST AGAIN
Bro. Christensen gave me a pill to take before my appointment this week. He really wanted me to just get a bunch of work done all at once so that he "doesn't end up another dentist in a long line of dentists that I just don't go back to". Kind of funny, but also very true, so not as funny. I was hesitant to take the pill- I hate taking medicine- but the thought of it going better and being an easier visit sounded too good. I don't know how well it worked. Nate seemed to think it did, but Dave didn't. I was mostly sleepy the whole time. I think I woke up a lot. But I don't remember most of it. Which is really nice. Nate was there the whole time so I don't feel as dumb about what I may have said, or whatever, so I think it was fine. He was able to work on the top right side of my mouth, fillings and crowning. He did way more than we'd planned so that was nice. I like being able to eat on that side again. I am feeling really good about all the work I've been able to get done recently. I just wish we could take care of these two that are still driving me nuts. I think he purposely chose to take care of the ones that aren't bothering me so that I will come back to do the rest. We'll see. When I got home I mostly slept, which would have been nicer if Molly hadn't been so needy. Nate was gone to YM along with all the big helpers. 10-3-18
P/T CONFERENCES (not to be confused with SEP conferences since they changed the name AGAIN)
We had awesome conferences this time! Minus the fact that Molly screamed through half of it all. I did them back to back again, which I need to stop doing. And I scheduled them on Thursday thinking Nate would be able to be there, but he got scheduled for overtime which was a bummer. Not to mention I picked times BEFORE Charity and Kelly were out of school so they weren't as much help either. So not to self: schedule after 2:20, on a FRIDAY, and don't do them back to back. Not that I had a whole lot of control because when I was finally able to get on to schedule- most of the goods times were gone. So anyway-
Mrs. Burns said that Jack is doing great! We talked about how much his handwriting has improved, what a good kid he is- not talking to friends and stuff, and that his reading is getting better. He is at level in all areas which was a relief. I was worried about that. We also talked about how he could work on paying better attention, following directions, and not going to La La Land. I think he's getting the hand of things and enjoying school. He told me the other day that he likes to learn. That's pretty remarkable. I'm happy he's enjoying Mrs. Burns and that she's not too overwhelming for him :). She's such a good teacher.
Mrs. Masterson said so many good things about Erika. She is above where she needs to be in all areas. She's a good student, good helper, and a pleasure to have in the class. She set a new bead read goal and I think she's going to work harder on that. Her typing score was incredible! I'm so proud of her and what she is doing in school.
Mrs. Moncur had all good things to say about Noah as well. She argued with how hard he was on himself in his self evaluation, saying he is better than he thinks, but she likes his growth mindset and wants him to improve even more. He was way above the required level in all areas as well. Pretty cool! I wish we could have talked better with Mrs. Moncur, Molly screamed almost the entire time.
We went and picked out books from the book fair while Charity wrestled with Molly and then we made like a tree and got out of there. 10-4-18
P/T CONFERENCE DINNER
So during all the chaos of the Molly show during conferences, I was stressing about the dumb dinner for the teachers. I hurried home, got the last minute things done- thanks to Nate I only had to do the last minute stuff- he did the meat for me. I headed over to the school, got it all set up and ready for everyone to bring their salads and desserts. I actually all went really smoothly, nobody forgot to bring their food so we had MORE than enough food. Like way more. Which is almost a bummer, but whatever. Those teachers do not eat "food for 40" I'm just going to say that. 10-4-18
KELLY GAME
I got to go watch Kelly's game in between set up and take down from the dinners. She's doing really well this season. It's definitely a learning year for her team, but I remember fall last year being a little like this. She needs some momentum is all. She'll get it. Still fun to watch her play! I love it. 10-4-18
BRAD'S FAMILY PARTY
We took a couple pizzas to school for lunch for Brad and his friends on Friday- kind of in place of birthday tables I think, the Junior High kids have decided this is the tradition :). It wasn't even his birthday, but since his birthday was on Sunday, we figured this was okay. I think he liked it. That evening was his family party. We invited everyone to Dartside, but Grandma Ruthie was the only one able to join us. She was fun to have there. I think she enjoyed watching them, once she got past the idea of them shooting each other. She kept wondering if the things they were shooting hurt. Then she would talk about paint ball. It was cute. She, Molly and I sat in the dark little viewing room. Nate and the rest of the kids played. It was a lot of fun to watch them. We came home for Fish Rice Krispie Treat "cake" and cupcakes and ice cream. Brad opened a couple presents and we all just played around. Lots of fun. I hope Brad could feel the love. 10-4-18
GENERAL CONFERENCE
I LOVED General Conference this year! I feel like I adequately prepared myself for it for the first time in a few years. I was so ready! And so excited. It felt like so many things were pointed at me. I received so much personal revelation all weekend and so many answers to prayers. It was like someone opened up a map and drew lines of where I need to go on it. I loved it. I think the coolest part was what happened before and during the Women's session. In between the last session on Saturday and the Women's session that night, I had to go pick up Charity from work. On my way there, I started thanking Heavenly Father for all that He had given me during those first two sessions. I was telling him all the stuff I loved, and thanking him for everything I felt prompted to write down, and all was feeling really good and then I got talking about my confusion and thoughts about having another baby. I have spent MANY hours pondering and praying about this subject because time after time I feel prompted that we should have another baby, but I've known Nate doesn't agree. So I finally ended the topic with "if you want us to have another baby, you are going to have to say something to Nate. He is not on board and I am not going to talk to him about it anymore. I've bugged him enough with the subject and I am done. So if you want us to- you tell him!" And I was really done with the whole idea. I know that Nate is close to the Spirit and can receive revelation just like I can, if not better, so I decided I would just sit back and wait- if that is what Heavenly Father wants. So then I moved on to the next thing and that was my concern with how I do not know if it is Heavenly Father giving me thoughts that I am not enough or if it is satan. I find myself feeling so confused sometimes about whether I am receiving promptings or not. This got me kind of sad. I was actually in tears by the time I got to Charity's work. So I quickly wiped the tears and put this all aside. Not really thinking a whole lot more about it. Well, fast forward to the Women's session, which we MIRACULOUSLY made it to on time! Even though we had had to juggle Ruby's birthday party and such. So as I was walking in to the Women's session, I decided to remind myself that this meeting isn't usually the one that touches me the most. I am usually prepared for it to be the best and then slightly disappointed, so I was trying to prepare myself for it to not be too magnificent. Well, two talks in- I wish I could remember who was speaking- but she gave a talk about following promptings and how the voices that make us feel worthless or like we will never be enough are from satan, the ones that tell us we can do better and motivate us to do better are from Heavenly Father. This might sound like a no brainer, but for whatever reason, I needed this inspiration! Her whole talk was so perfect for what I had talked to Heavenly Father about. I looked around at everyone thinking that I kind of felt bad that everyone had to listen to this talk that was given just for me. I was feeling pretty awesome that Heavenly Father had answered a prayer I'd prayed only an hour before! Then President Eyring spoke and HIS talk was AMAZING!!! It was all about mothers. The only bad thing was that I could feel him telling me that I was not to leave Nate receiving that revelation on his own- that I NEEDED to tell him the thoughts I had had earlier that day about having another baby. He said things that continually gave me that impression!! I felt like Heavenly Father was saying- you will not tell me what to do- I will tell you :). It was a hard thing to hear because I knew how Nate felt about things, but I had committed to doing the things I am prompted to do just minutes before hearing this talk! I promised Heavenly Father I would talk to him. THEN President Oaks's talk was another one just pushing me in that same direction! He talked about how many babies are being born into homes where they will not have the blessings of the Gospel. It is hard to think about having another baby (being pregnant especially), but the thought of one more spirit being able to be raised in a loving righteous home, makes me feel like I would really be helping Heavenly Father out. It seems like the right thing to do. Not something Heavenly Father is requiring of us to do, but more something we can do to show Him our love and that we are willing to sacrifice and do hard things to bring about His work. The thought has occurred to me that this could be an Isaac sacrificing Jacob type thing- where he just wants to see if we will be willing, but either way- I have decided it is worth it to show Heavenly Father my faith. So anyway- this reconfirmed all that I was thinking during the day and from Pres. Eyring's talk. THEN President Nelson spoke! His talk was ANOTHER ONE that was JUST FOR ME!! It was amazing! All about being a mother. All about our roles as mothers. It was amazing. And reconfirmed AGAIN for me that I needed to talk to Nate and that this was the right thing. It was really really cool!! I loved the things Pres. Nelson asked us to do as well- I am on my social media fast still. Feels amazing. I was really glad that me and three of my girls got to go to the Stake Center together to hear this beautiful meeting. It was really amazing and just what I needed. There was a lot of resolve in me that night. Too bad I didn't get to talk to Nate for another day. 10-6-18
RUBY'S BIRTHDAY PARTY
In between conference and the Women's session, I took Molly to Ruby's party. I had planned on just dropping her off but there were so many people there, I worried about Molly getting lost in it all and having an accident, or getting scared or something, so I stayed. It was THE CUTEST party though! Natalie went ALL OUT. Molly LOVED it! She was in heaven during that first half. She got her own pony ears and tail, colored a picture of a pony, and then as they were starting pin the tail on the pony I left to go get Charity. When I got back she had made a snow globe and was hunting for gems all over their living room! So cute! She got to watch Ruby open her presents and then had cake and ice cream. She was getting pretty tired by this time. And it was really time for us to get going, but she had SO MUCH FUN!! It was adorable!

























