So this was a little different tonight- with journaling. My hope was that I would point the kids in a direction of peace and harmony with each other. You are supposed to write a letter to the family as if it is the last thing you will ever get to say to them. It's a family night that Heidi did when we were little and I still have the letter I wrote. I remember feeling a lot of love for everyone, so hopefully it did the same thing for these guys. I loved reading their letters!
LUKE:
The last words I would tell my family would be Thank you guys for being a great family. I'm sorry for the times I've ver been rood. Think of me when ever you can. Mom and Dad thanks for being such awsome parents. Thanks for being such great siblings. I love you guys so much. I will miss you. Thank you guys for always being there for me. Thanks for helping me, being kind to me, listening to me, motavating me, and always thinking of me.
ERIKA:
I hope you gise will rember me. I hope my mom will remember our date Where you got to paint cool stuff. I hope my Brother bradley remebrs when we would go fishing. I hope my brother Luke will remembrs when we playd with monbolls.
KELLY:
Sunday 11/20/16 Kelly Maynes Journaling
What would be the last words I would want to say to my family?
I love you guys so much! I want to aplogize for all those times I hurt your feelings or offended you in any way. Those times I might've insulted you were meant to be jokes. I have never wanted to hurt you guys in any way. You are the biggest blessing I have been given! I have realized how much you guys mean to me! You are so priceless and I will always remember all the fun memories I've had with you! Right now I've realized that all those little things we've faught about don't matter anymore. As I've thought about all the things we've been through together I wish we would've spent less time arguing. And I just want to tell you thank you! Thanks for being there for me through thick and thin. Dad I'm going to miss your amazing smile and all your funny jokes. And the way you would wait for me, with that guilt giving face, to give you a kiss after prayers. Mom, I'm really going to miss having you around to listen to my day. I love the way you would give me a hug, it made me feel so safe and warm. Charity I loved being able to talk to you about anything. And I'm sorry for those times that I would get mad at you for stupid things. I wish we could've gotten along a little bit better. I remember the fun we'd have when we walked home from school. We would just talk and laugh! And when I was with you it made me feel like I could do anything! It took me away from the world for a little bit. Bradley, I am so sorry for everything I did wrong to you! Brad I've always been jelous of how talented and amazing you are. I don't know of any other kid who is as tough and sweet as you are. I loved seeing you laugh and goof around! Brad I loved the way you would smile at me! :) And I'm really going to miss having you around to stick up for me! You were always there for me to make me have a little bit more confidence to get me a little bit farther in life. Luke I don't know what i am going to do without you! And I just have one question for you, how did you always stay so positive and happy? I remember coming home from a really hard day and you being the first person to make me smile. Luke I always loved hearing your prayers! They always gave me a pinch of hope. Luke you had the brightest smile and you could always make me laugh I really don't know how I'm going to be okay without coming home and seeing you smiling. And I will always remember the fun bike ride we had to Wendy's. I mean even then you were able to stay happy! And I'm really going to miss that. Noah, oh sweet little Noah I love you so much! I think you were the one who kept my testimony strong. I'm going to miss how either you or Charity in a hard time would immediately think to drop down on your knees and ask Heavenly Father for help. And Noah, anyone who gets to spend time with you is so lucky! I am going to miss you! You re so much fun to be around. How did you always have such a creative mind? I wish I could've been more like you :). Erika, I am going to miss every single little thing about you! You have shaped me to be a better person and sister. I love seeing you run over to be and giving me a big hug. And Erika I wish we would've argued less. I remember when you would drag me around the house to get me to do something. Erika every guy is going to fall for your bright personality and sparkling smile. I don't know if I could've lived without having you as a little sister. And I loved playing lacrosse with you and making your fairy garden. Jack, I loved your hugs! They made me so happy! And Jack I want to say that I am so sorry for teasing you! But you were always so patient with me. And I loved doing things with you! You could always turn any activity into something fun! I remember when you were born. You were such an innocent little angel! You always have carried the spirit with you wherever you were. I could tell that you had a strong trelationship with HEavenly Father and it had an influence on me. And Jack I absolutely will miss your cute little prayers! You had more love in your little body than anyone. And I am going to miss you Jack. I remember the fun we would have outside! or when we built a tent in your room. But Jack you'll have to ask someone else to help you now. But I want you to keep on laughing. Molly, I loved that you looked like me :) I remember how everyone would call you my little clone. But Molly, grow up to be the best person you can! Have an influence on the world. Molly I loved seeing all your cute little facial expressions. And whenever I'd hold you I could feel so peaceful.
I want you all to know that I love you more than anything in th eworld! you guys are my world. And even though I won't be with you anymore. I will be with you again. Stay strong and make the world a better place for me :)
BRADLEY:
Dad I loved all the jokes you made. And I love it when you would wake me up in the morning singing lovely wonderful songs. I loved going out and playing basketball and going fishing with you. I remember you would always be there to cheer me up or play with me even when you didn't really want to. You would always take us out to dinner or when we went to a place to play an activity you would always team up with me or against. I remember at dartside you made me the most important on the team because it was my b-day. I remember you were the most popular parent when we went on school field trips. I loved how you always had me as the star basketball player on our team and the most important one. I loved all the smoked meats you did. The pork, salmon, sausages, deer, fish, brisket, ribs and jerkey were so good. Thx for teaching me to smoke foods. Thanks for teaching me how to be an awesome fisherman. Mom I loved how you could always have fun. I loved how you teased me alot. (the fun way). I loved whenever you took me on feild trips you went and got me frosties. I remember you would always drive me to the ponds whenever I didn't have someone to go with. I remember you would always push me forward to the finish whenever I did a race. I remember when you would always help me with my projects or assignments at school. I remember that you were the best at making cakes. You could make any sie of cake or desine out of cake and fondant. I loved how everything was in order and fun. I rmeember you would make any situation fun. I remember you made the tastiest meals. You could never mess up one of your meals. You would always help me with any problems I had you are so smart and you are great at solving problems. You are one of the most spiritual person I know. Charity you are an awesome sister. I loved that you would always fish and play basketball with me. I remember you were such an amazing cook. Though sometimes you thought you messed up in your cooking I thought it was fantastic. I remember that you did the hoop shoot and won like 3rd place in the state. You would always try to make me feel better or get better. You would always get me out of trouble. Kelly I remember that you have always been there to cheer me up. I am so sorry about all the fights that we have gotten into. Kelly you are such an awesome sister. You are always there to play with me when I am in need of someone. You are the best artist I know you can practically draw anything you see you're like a printer. I am so sorry for being mean to you all these years you are awesome!!
Luke I love you so much. YOu are so much fun to play with. I sure love playing on your basketball team. Remember that buzzer beater three where we wont the game It was awesome I love going to boondocks with you because you're my good luck charm at all arcade games I remember we would always play foosball and you would always win. I loved how whatever condition we were in you were the cheerful one. I love you were soo good at almost everything you tried. You are so amazing!!!
Noah you are super awesome. I sure love to play with you. YOu are such an awesome artist. I loved watching you draw it's entertaining. I remember you were always super happy. I loved how you were so amazing at basketball and fishing. I loved taking you fishing with me because you would always make me catch even more fish.
Erika you are an awesome sister. I loved watching your basketball games because....
[Bradley didn't finish so I will add the rest of his when he does :). Also, Noah's got misplaced. I will see if I can get him to rewrite his.]